I can have more babies

I had my regular pap smear today. I asked my doctor if I could have more children since the last one didn't end very well. And well, he said I could, but I would just be at a higher risk for getting it again. I'm happy about that, but I guess the thing is do I want to. Do I really want to have more children. DOn't get me wrong, I would love to have more children the thing is I'm scarred. I'm scarred because it can kill you and I don't know if I want to take that risk or risk having to have another c-section. I love my baby and I really want to watch her grow up. But preclampsia can kill you and it can kill the baby. I guess i just need to pray about it. THis is just so hard.