WIC

So I tried to get my daughter on WIC but apparently my family makes three thousand more then the qualifying limit. We are a family of three who made 34,000 last year. You got to be kidding. I know there are families who make less then that, but who can live on that. The majority of our money goes to, you got it, health insurance. My husband only brings in 1200 a month after health insurance gets its cut. That doesn't even include my daughter who have to pay 93 dollars for. SO really its 1100/ DO we eat. Yeap. But we can barely afford food. I had around 7,000 dollars in saving before I had my daughter. Now, I'm down to 600. Sometimes, I wonder where it all went. SOmetimes I scared about the possiblity of another pregnancy. We can't afford one on our own. I know that if it happened, we our family would surround us and the child would be taken care of. Our family has helped us a lot with Michelle.

P.S. I started this blog around 7:15 its after 8 and I'm not posting it

mad at God

I'm struggling here. I'm having a really hard time trying not to get mad at God. But its hard. Ever since I had Michelle we have been struggling financially. We cannot afford to pay the bills, nor eat. I know I'm suppose to trust him. I know he has my best interest in heart, but I'm getting impatient I want the light at the end of the tunnel. I work, but not full time and I get afford the minimum living standard. I did what I was suppose to do. I got educated. I got married. I had a baby. Hey I didn't even have sex until my wedding night. But you know what I can't afford my baby because of all my medical bills. I get so tired of people saying health care shouldn't be free. Well, you know what, the police are free. The public schools are free and a host of other things. I get't so mad when I hear the politicians talk about health insurance. Get rid of health insurance, that's the beast. I guarantee you that is what is driving health costs so high. Oh, by the way, I had health insurance. But pre-clamspia kind of broke me. I get so tired of hearing people, say if you can't afford a child then you shouldn't have one. That only married, upper middle class people deserve children and all us poor people should be the supplier. Well know what I could afford her when I got pregnant with her but things change in a second. So what should I do. HUH, give her away.
You know what people with good health insurance, you just don't understand. I'm at the point where I feel that if you don't want to pay for free health care then I don't want to pay so that the cops can keep a robber away from your nice four story home. Want to talk about socialism there is more socialism in this country then people realize.
I've joined some online groups to talk to moms in unplanned pregnancies to help them anyway I can. I feel God is leading me towards this and the things that people say to them is sickening. So many people joined these groups looking to fulfill their own needs and see nothing wrong with taking advantage of a woman in a financial straight. So how about this. How about helping others instead of taking. I mean really what's more selfish.
ANyway I guess that is my rant for today. It's made me feel so much better. I have another agent looking at my novel. I pray everyday that the agents signs it. That could be my ticket out of this and I can tell you what, if it makes money thatI can live off of it. I have dreams, Dreams I wonder if they are God's dreams. Dreams to help others in need.

Guess what

I’m so sick and tired of people complaining about welfare. I know that most people have absolutely no real idea about welfare and who is on it since the media absolutely misrepresents it. But I’m just sick of hearing it.

SO LISTEN UP WORLD. MOST PEOPLE ON WELFARE ARE NOT TEENAGE BLACK MOMS. IN FACT MOST PEOPLE ON WELFARE ARE NOT EVEN TEENAGERS. JUST KEEP REPEATING THAT TO YOURSELF.

Do some research. Read the mommy myth.

You know I have a master’s degree. My husband has a bachelor’s degree and we can barely afford to eat. We did what we were supposed to do. We got educated. But you know what we are not living the American dream. I can’t find a good paying job and I work. He works. I have to make my daughter’s cloth diapers. I haven’t bought clothes in forever. Almost all her toys were bought by other people and all her clothes come from hand me downs. Neither has my husband. I’m scared of getting pregnant because another baby would absolutely break us. My husband has high cholesterol. I’m going to have to figure how to afford healthy food. We are inches away from welfare. Just inches and were the married white couple that didn’t have sex until we got married.

And you know what most people on welfare don’t live on it forever. They are not breaking the economy. You know what is: Republicans and Democrats. Yeap that’s right politicians and their corporate buddies. Not to be cliché’ But I’m so jaded with politicians. I don’t think a single one running for president is going to do a darn thing to help anyone. Really I don’t. You know why it’s not about us. It’s about them. It’s always about them.

And yes I'm in a mad mood. I'm so sick of struggling.